A poem called “Anxiety Sucks”

Anxiety Sucks,

By theamazinj

What a crock,
You fucking jerk,
You slimey ass,
How dare you,
How dare you,
Yeah, i am talking to you ass,
Yeah you in my head
Who needs to shut up now
And let me just be who i am
In this amazing world.
That's right, you, you foul loathing evil little shit,
Anxiety sucks and this is what I’d like to shout it at it like,
Cause anxiety sucks or better yet the name
I hate anxiety for called Klong.
Anxiety sucks and i can do better,
As long as i don’t listen to it,
As long as I don’t adhere to its bullshit,
Anxiety is beezwax,
Anxiety tries to put not only me down
But everyone else between it
and around it.
I like you,
i like myself,
Yet when Anxiety gets in the way
It becomes a panic,
It becomes hysteria,
Mania,
It makes people mad,
Madness destroys
Madness can be negative with anxiety,
Madness can kill with anxiety,
Yet, it can be maintained,
Anxiety can be compounded to balance
Balancing my head, my body, and
My embodiment to identify who i am
without the rage anxiety causes,
but mixing anxiety with being Autistic,
and better yet mixed with other
psychiatric disability
and the thing you get is a
whole hot mess.
Anxiety, autism, and so many others
are there for reasons many cannot explain
many cannot accept, and
many cannot even understand,
so many in a society focus on
things like cure, things like segregation,
things like separation, things like dehumanization
even with so many doing the things
to silence voices, censor words and sentences and books,
yet we live in a world where
all these things we call disability are
not very well accepted,
are not very well understood,
and are not very well remarkably coined
as what as being a person
even though it is very much a part of the
human experience, the experiences everyone will go through
from time to time or every day of their life.
anxiety wants to please and if we cannot please,
then we are doing something wrong and anxiety says
everyone hates us, anxiety says everyone thinks we cannot do it,
and anxiety says everyone thinks I am loser,
however, it's important to ignore everything of these words,
sentences, and say we build confidence that
we can do it with whatever we can, with whatever we have,
with whatever ideas we want to pursue with whatever we
can do it with,
because anxiety is there and can be maintained,
to help us to push us toward actually doing it
and being ourselves with pushing ourselves
as anxiety supposed to do without getting caught up
with anxiety too much or too little
when when we just sit and moll becoming depressed
and asinine,
no one knows until they actually do.

A Poem called "Dignity of Risk"

Dignity of Risk,

by theamazinJ

I make my choices,
and so do you,
I make my choices,
and they are mine.
My choices are good,
my choices are poor,
but so are yours, either good or poor.
I get to choose
as you choose for your own.
There is a thing called Dignity of Risk,
and everyone gets to decide for themselves.
Regardless of what you say,
regardless of what you think,
and everything that is said,
everything that is done,
and everything that is experienced.
No one can say this, no one can say that,
and everyone gets their way
to do, to say, and experience based on what they feel at the moment.
Self-determination is not radical, it's interdependence, it's life.
When someone has a direction for themselves,
they get to choose, and by choosing they get to live,
and by living,
everyone has their choices to live with their own conditions
that serve them well with their own opinions and what they want to learn,
everyone has their choices to live in inclusion or not,
everyone gets choices to live under their own conditions
independent from your own,
everyone gets to choose because choices make our own decisions.
You may disagree, you may not like what is said,
you may not like why a person was angry,
but you don't have a right to change the person's feelings
to make them feel for what you want them to feel.
Everyone has their own feelings,
everyone has their experiences why they felt they needed to do things,
and no one has a right to cause pain or even more pain for that matter
to anyone
while causing the person suffering or worse to leave.
Everyone has the pain,
the pain of the experiences we live,
the excitement and thrills of every experience we live,
and the many many interactions of people we get to meet every day
if we choose to do so.
It takes guts to live on your own conditions,
it takes guts to reject yours and yours and yours,
and never look back to what yours and yours and yours of every thought was,
in the end,
because in the end,
the only conditions you can choose to live
is your own.
It's your own because it's the way you get to choose for yourself,
no one has rights over anyone,
in their own right mind.
It's important because it's called responsibility.
Your own right mind is the right mind of the person living it in their own body
with their own mind that the person gets to choose no matter what.
On this new year approaching,
the mind is bolder, the body is intense, and the spirit is more golden,
because everyone gets to choose,
whether anyone else likes that or not,
and everyone gets to make their own mistakes,
and everyone gets to decide at the moment what is right for them.
You and you and you, even decided things that was poor or poorer too,
and everyone still likes to tell even more so,
but it really is up to the person, the individual, the citizen living in this world,
who gets to choose what is right for them.
Don't get angry, don't get sad, just be happy for your own life,
your own conditions you choose, and stop paying attention to other conditions.
Self-determination beholds the gate to open and the door
to the extraordinaire of our genre of fate,
and our genre of the life we get to live
to the destiny we leave with at the end years and years later.
Amen.