A Poem Called "Burden"

Burden,

by theamazinJ

Am I a burden?
Am I broken?
Am I a problem?
I am leading my own life.
I am a director of my own services.
I am doing whatever I can for myself.
I am trying to feel whole
even with too many see me as broken.
Many people look at me
with dismay and horror
because I seem different,
well, Hello, I am different,
I am disabled, I am Autistic,
I am the person I am,
the way I was born to be,
and most importantly
no one can interpret me
as a burden,
as broken,
as a problem that needs to be fixed.
I am very caring and loving,
I have a mind that is beautiful,
I have a heart filled with gold,
I have a soul as old as the world itself,
but a burden? A real burden cause you see me as different?
A burden because I am disabled?
As disabled as many people in this society are,
belonging to the largest minority group
that grows and grows every day,
where our society does not accept
and our society just wants to fix for their own judgements
and their own way of creating a social construct
and their own way of editing the human race
as if we are not already a person
as if we are not already living
like none of us can make the right decisions
and especially if the person is disabled
like disability means the person is automatically incompetent,
and the disability really is not a part of the culture of humanity,
the human spectrum is strong,
the human spectrum is a wide array of differences and disabilities,
yet, no one wants to say it the way it is,
everyone rather euphemistically
use words like differently abled, alternately abled, special, and
stare at people who are different
as though the person is really a burden,
is really a problem, and really needs to be fixed and
constructed with the universal domestication.
Humanity is a spectrum.
Humanity is real.
Humanity has free will.
Humanity has our own minds.
We are in the human race for a reason in order to reason, question, and analyze.
I am a director of my own services, a boss, and leading my own
because I'm equipped with the mind I was born with,
no one was born with my mind,
they were born with their own,
and from that, the experiences they lived with their own mind all along.
And, to someday, we all have the choice if we choose to find a partner
and from that we all have the choice if we choose to make our own family
and from that we decide to teach our own or other children what we know
and what we want our children to know.
Someday I hope to be a husband, a father, a uncle, and eventually a grandfather
and even more so if possible, a great grandfather
teaching wisdom and teachings to children of my own.
I am 38 years old now.
Being a husband, a father, a uncle, a grandfather, and a great grandfather
takes great responsibility and integrity and partnership and how much you want it
regardless who you partner with and why you partner with the person you want to be with.
Some people don't want that and are pleased with themselves
living by themselves,
and the love we have is to treat every person with dignity,
not as a burden, not as broken, and without the entitled feelings
that someone may feel insulted, rejected, and hurt
if their child does not do exactly what they want
and exactly how they wanted their child to be based on their own ideas.
We have 2 choices:
Live with entitled pride and ignorance and cynicism.
or Live with humility and wisdom and a open mind.
We are not a burden.
Everyone is a human being.
Everyone needs to understand each other.
Everyone is whole.
We pray. Every morning and every night.
And, we pray for parents, we pray for siblings, we pray for ourselves,
we pray to be whole,
and we pray for understanding and acceptance.
Prayer is just a statement of what we want and nothing more.

A Poem Called "Nothing About US"

Nothing About Us,

by theamazinJ

Founding art,
founding poetry,
founding film,
founding paints filled with colors,
filled with everything that serves us,
speaking with our tongues,
voicing with our fingers,
hearing with the perimeters of what we can hear,
seeing what brilliance everything has in store for us,
moving our bodies whichever way we go.
Because it's nothing without us, and nothing about anyone else,
it's about life and living and striving for our own self-determination.
Nothing about us,
Nothing without us,
Nothing ever comes between us and you and anyone,
we strive to keep our dignity,
we respect everyone who tries hard to maintain respect,
keeping our mind common hope, to love, to hate,
I love you, I hate you.
Every time we live it's either love or hate every part of the day,
but most importantly,
it's about what love we can keep and what hate we can let go.
Relationships come, relationships go,
take the masterpiece to the fundamental truths of matter,
to the relations of who we are,
because in the end,
it's about us, it's about life, and it's what matters most
building life, liberty, and common practice of what we all know,
the body we live in, the mind we were given,
and the talents we build to surface the world with
and make the difference we have with what it takes
to live however we feel and want.
No one takes that away,
everyone must find it for themselves
regardless how they see,
regardless how they hear,
regardless how they feel,
and regardless how they emerge with their inspirations.
Everything goes from one thing to the next,
we speak with what we've got and how we can at the time,
and from this day forward,
forget about inspiration of who you are of who I am,
forget about tokenizing or passing for what others want,
and just remember to have the attitude
to be who you are with what you want with what you have
and remember to take everyone's opinions as a grain of salt
because that's all that is, it means nothing,
and one day when you're sitting at the door
waving goodbye to the world ready to leave,
you'll remember
Nothing about us, without us,
you'll remember you lived for you, not for other's and their opinions,
and you lived for everything you wanted
without letting any part of the your masquerade
passing in society become influenced by anyone.
Leave it at that and cross and fade and pass through the curtain as that.
and one last thing,
say 'Thank you' too.