Is it Worth the Frustration to be nOrMAL,

by theamazinJ

Normal 
             nORMAl
    NORmal
                       norMAL
        NORMAL!
I feel the frustration,
     is it normal?
   Is it supposed to be passing for norMAL?
                WHAT IS dammmit, NORMAL?
Normal is...
difficult,
NORMAL is...
frustrating,
NORmal is...
OMG!
NORMAL is...
OMG...I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!
NORmal is...
Oh my goodness, OMG, Oh my GOD!
NORMAL, what can I say?
NORMAL, it is hard
It's like very few can pass for it,
yet MANY embrace it.
It's so very stimulating or in this case, 
TRigGERRing to have to pass for norMAL!~~~

NORMAL IS...
hurtful,
especially when I am not NoRMAL,
including my friends who are not NORmal either,
or even whenever I walk down a street
I see MANY struggling to be NorMAl,
NORMAL is a social construction,
it is passing for...
what America wants,
it is passing for...
being non-disabled or NON-NEURODIVERGENT,
also, when EVERYONE is born NEURODIVERGENT, 
but only PASS for NORMAL 
and embrace NORMALITY
only to 
        ACCEPT NORMALITY
      AND
 Oppress The MANY citizens out there who CANNOT,
especially when 
   you are NEUROQUEER,
  OR even when
      you are not one of the BINARY genders
 when gender is FLUID and is non-binary,
   NOT saying I am non-binary, I AM JUST OPEN-MINDED 
to everyone's gender differences and EVERYONE's iDeNTiES,
and the self-determination of being WHO WE ARE INDIVIDUALLY,
and being the person we are MEANT TO BE and ARE in this world.
                NOrMaL, what the heck is it,
when it's all about when WHITE MaLE Christians who created the damn word many years ago,
who wanted EVERYONE to conform to THEM,
and who WANTED everyone to be non-disabled, non-neurodivergent, and labelled by IQ.
AND, who also wanted EVERYONE to look, feel, and think the SAME way,
How NORMAL is that when SO many are different races, of different religions,
of different thinking types, of different emotional types,          of different FEeLIngs, 
      OF different concurrences acting at the SAME time,
   OR of different lapses of time splitting in their heads, 
and of different genders and differences in disability,
BECAUSE everyone can DO it, 
        NO one is IMMUNE to think differently,       WE are CREATIVE which is WHY normal was made,
which is why things are DiFFerent,
  but MORE importantly why WE all make MISTAKES especially with TRY(ING) to NORMALIZE America,
and in many CASES NORMALIZE the WHOLE WORLD, but        many CANNOT be NORMAL,
MANY cANNOt think NORMAL, many CANnot feel norMAL 
because NORMAL is painful especially when someone is disabled, 
especially painful when someone is NEURODIVERGENT
when being NeuroDiVERgent is not VERY embraced
and people want to accept NORMAL as the 'in' thing as the BRAINS and the one with IQ,
and neurodivergent as OUT, as the 'OTHER', and the one that is WEIRD or FREAK or INCOMPETENT or     
  STUPID or even the     re2379427d,
eVERyone is really neurOdivergent, but many seem to discount it, seem to disregard it, or even THINK SAMENESS is the 'in' thing,
when EVERYONE is really different,
everyone is really ...
      CREATIVE, emoTIONal, lEarnING all the time, brainy, INTELLIGENT, gaining WISDOM everyday, has their own WaY of doing things.
while everyone can ...
 BREAKDOwn, everyone can..
meltdown, 
everyone can...
      hit rockbottom to only rise to the TOP,
EVERYONE can...
                                            MAKE a MASTERPIECE    OR Make an invention     OR make a discovery from within themselves that CREATES connection 
and CREATES something with their MINDS even when it is just very small BECAUSE it really is VERY BIG for the world,
just like NORMAL was and just the way NORMAL was created 
ESPECIALLY when normal is destructive to a human being's personhood and just when normal can also construct certain elements of life,
because normal is paining and hurting MANY in this world 
our peers who are not of the binary genders like you or I,
our peers who are NEUROQUEER
our peers who are a(sexual) or even sexual,
OUR peers who are mixed race, or not of the same race as you or I,
OR the way me and my peers who believe in different religious or spiritual thinkings,
or how many citizens who are disabled, neurodivergent seem to experience the world differently
even when the disability and neurodivergence is autism,
or even when it is cerebral palsy, down syndrome, or many other different developmental disabilities 
because having developmental disability is NOT considered normal and is not considered intelligent and 
seems to always associate with judgement, always associates with stupidity and incompetence and not knowing what is right or what is wrong,
     Being developmentally disabled is 
           being more INTELLIGENT than peers who embrace normality can even fathom,
               its's being more FUN and comical than one can even think about,
                     AND, is being more empathic and CREATIVE at the same time than any other citizens can even feel and think,
Being developmentally disabled or even have psychiatric disability is a thing, but it does not have to mean the person has to be this normal...
             or has to abide by the rules that the leaders of normal created years ago,
    Being developmentally disabled and having psychiatric disability is part of being human,
It's a way that life sets us off, it's a way to experience the world, and it's a way of being intelligent differently,
since anyone of us can have psychiatric disability because it's part of human experiences,
and developmental disability is a thing that happens to many, but not all, as a way to know being human is IMPERFECT,
and being human is MORTAL, and being human, everyone will have different ways to express the genes of the human race,
        EVERYONE is GREAT, everyone is GOOD, and EVERYONE thinks different, and MOST importantly NORMAL was just a story or concept created but does not have to be embraced by anyone.
I am male, I am neurodivergent, I am autistiC, I am Jewish, I am spiritual, I am a artist, I am a beginning filmmaker, I am a scholar, I read many books and articles, I am a poet, 
I am a person of science, I am many identities, I always have my own mind,
and most importantly, 
I am J.